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brightsidea's Halloween party:

99catsaway didn't dress up, spoilsport.
_jax_ dressed as a fullback for the Vikings.
_veruka_salt_ dressed as Rebecca Gayheart.
abigor dressed as a justice.
angrybunnyman didn't dress up, spoilsport.
archiedavis dressed as Calvin Coolidge.
artindulgence dressed as a character from "Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith".
artluva dressed as Wile E. Coyote.
assfingers dressed as Ozzy Osbourne.
asteroidbelt dressed as a pixie.
bagorazors dressed as Brad Pitt's father.
biggerkrissy dressed as a character from Harry Potter and the Candle of Darkness.
bluewrenn dressed as Mary-Kate Olsen with her very own conjoined Ashley.
cuddlyrigormort dressed as David Letterman, and it suited them disturbingly well.
delphizyx dressed as Ali Landry riding a dog.
dianawolf dressed as Bill Clinton.
dlishs_grind dressed as a disturbing self-made character called "Gidget Girdleface".
enchylatta didn't dress up, spoilsport.
epeolatry dressed as a vampire.
gei223 dressed as something saving, but what, specifically, you can't tell.
ghostandvillain dressed as the spirit of their dead grandmother Leona.
grlinabox dressed as a oblivious goblin.
jennybean42 dressed as the Brady Bunch -- all of them.
kalinichta dressed as a elk.
kiawah dressed as a 1960's hippie child.
livingindarknes gets drunk, strips naked, and somehow emerges dressed as an external hard drive.
lrstech dressed as a interpretation.
lucylovebiscuit dressed as the Earl of Southburg.
lynedd dressed as Monica Lewinsky.
machinarex forgot to put on clothes!
monkey_momma dressed as a Level 9 paladin.
morganaus dressed as a bottle of Asperxac.
moxiegirl dressed as a Michigan & Company Stores, LLC employee.
myerscho dressed as Princess Leia.
oriannakitty dressed as Chekov from "Star Trek".
pomly dressed as Bono.
pthalostars didn't dress up, spoilsport.
runewise dressed as the Average Power Ranger.
scaeriefaerie13 dressed as the Cardinal of Kytroooid.
smiling_frog dressed as a new superhero: Wombat Djinn.
summerlady dressed as a squirrel.
surpriseparty dressed as your grandfather.
tatteredrags dressed as Karl Rove.
thecre8tivei dressed as a mean lizard.
tofarawayplaces didn't dress up, spoilsport.
tricia_joy dressed as the love child of Guy Pearce and Connie Chung.
zesty_pinto gets drunk, strips naked, and somehow emerges dressed as the King of Bermuda.
zombiespoon dressed as a new member of the Wu-Tang Clan, Excessive Magician.
zzbeadz dressed as Venus Williams.

Throw your own party at the Hallomeme!
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By my computer desk I have a little ledge below the window. I love art dolls, odd things, treasures both handmade and store bought. Either way the things on my little ledge are what I look at all day long while I while away my time on the computer. Here are some of my treasures (sorry for the poorly posed pic- to do it better I would have had to clean off my desk. Hahahahhahahahhahahhahahaha). . You can see the new clown doll I got yesterday from livingindarknes Also the pendant is hanging from the curtain for now. Also a great mini monster print and monster from myerscho and of course some buggies and gourdy things from bagorazors. Add to that a plastic godzilla, stitch holding a flag, a mood doll that has 4 different faces as you turn in and a sock monkey religious candle and you are ready to go! Maybe I'll take a better pic after I clean off my desk. Hahahahhahahahahah. I crack myself up!

My birthday is this week. 39. Lots of reflection and none of it positive. Ever feel like you've wasted your life? Like what do I have to show for all these years and can I do it better?

I don't feel like I'm succeeding at any of my roles. I don't feel like I'm a good enough mom ~ I'm always cranky and overtired and needing alone time. I don't feel like I'm a good enough daughter ~ mom is terminal with colon cancer, dad is in a rehab after his surgery in June and continues to decline. And I go to mom's everyday and do the chores and do grocery shopping but I don't have the time to just enjoy her while she is still here. And I only get to the rehab maybe once a week to see dad. I don't feel like I'm a good enough counselor~ in fact quit my job ~ don't seem to be helping people ~ no one is getting that much better. I don't feel like I'm a good enough friend. I don't feel like I'm good enough at being a home owner ~ can't seem to keep up with it all. I don't feel like I'm a good enough member of the human race ~ don't do enough of giving to my fellow man....... ok I won't go on.... you get the idea.....

When am I going to feel like a grown up? that I've accomplished something positive? that I belong to something bigger than myself?

Ugh.

Don't you love birthdays?